11.17.2008

throw me a bone

life is weird. the twist and turns that we find ourselves on. and it continues to amaze me how we can wake up one day and suddenly the entire path of life changes. two have come our way this week...

#1 we are 99.9% sure we have finally found an 'answer' to our frustrations with josiah. if he isn't the textbook case of ADD i don't know who is. while i am excited that there is HOPE, and maybe some real answers other than pulling our hair out and submitting josiah to a life that has him eternally grounded, it is nevertheless life altering. now we have a kid with a 'need', a kid who requires special attention and maintenance. school isn't just school anymore, it's this mammoth thing in front of us that at this point is driving us all crazy and we are facing this giant of a thing that we have no idea how to handle. life is weird. just when i was rejoicing that josiah was a great reader and wasn't going to have difficulty in school...

#2 at the same time that we are experiencing this reality check on what life with 'older' kids entails - more time consuming, money consuming, emotion consuming, energy consuming - we are also feeling the push to pray about #5. for a variety of reasons if we are to go for #5, the decision needs to be made fairly soon. and so we find ourselves having one day this week suddenly burdened for #5 and investigating the options. what in the world?

i don't know what we are doing. we know nothing about ADD. we know nothing about a kid who struggles in school. we know nothing about what God wants our family to look like. but i WANT to know SOMETHING!

3 comments:

Jill Johnson said...

All I can say is W.O.W. #5 already! I'm in awe as I'm having troubles making it through each day with just one...and yet I'm jealous, as I wish I could start for #2, but would have at least a 5 year wait after marriage unless China opens back up. I pray God will make it very clear just where and when and how #5 is to become a part of your family.

tara said...

How exciting! We are already thinking about number 2 as well. 2 obviously isn't quite as big as 5, but maybe someday.

Llewellyn Riddle said...

Wow, Ashleigh!! I'll say that 5 is pretty nice - however, several of my 5 are 10 and over! Keep us posted! Llewellyn